my dog died and i don t want to live

Damn CANCER! They know you often loved them more than you loved yourself With all his strength he lifted his head looked at me while tilting his head and licked my nose put his head back in my arms took 2 big deep breaths and passed away. There is no pain like losing a dog, is there? But it wasn’t just my dog that died today. I purchased 2 personalized personalized wind chimes: one for outside and one I placed inside where I go to “talk” to Todd. The physical ache The pleading with god to change it. God bless you in your healings, I lost my beautiful beiley tues night, I mad the terrible mistake , my husband and I didnt know, he had been crying at night for long time, so we started giving him Ibuprofen, my RX from and ear infection, then he started getting really sick, I dint relate it to that, I think I killed my own boy, I am in so much pain, dont think I can go on, cant eat, get out of bed, nothing….what do I do… Constant sadness and emptiness I feel. lmk a number to call pls. I really had to deal with it all on my own. My heart is broken. She had a chronic health condition (congestive heart failure). I felt you were speaking for me. I miss my girl so much and keep asking why she left us…..I’m heartbroken. She had plenty of water, but wouldn’t drink it. This plan includes all possible exits from this world. We got our dog, Lady, in May, 2001. I have been reading losing a family pet is just as hard as losing a loved one. I’ve had some bad nightmares, and some startling images disturb me in my sleep. I wrote this article a couple days ago, for a widow. That is when they told me that she died a day before. I brushed Todd’s teeth, I sang to Todd, I talked to Todd and Todd “talked” to me. When I can save the cab fare as I no longer have a car and my neighbor pretends she has no idea what shelter she took me to when it was her idea, will I go to that shelter and get another dog. Surgery and chemo. I still wanted to take her home with medicine but my 2 sons were there and they said she wouldn’t get better so we put her down. One minute I feel OK and the next I’m miserable and crying or feel like all the air left my lungs. It was a tearful and fitting tribute to a dear winged friend. Hazel was diagnosed on May 5, 2016 with a tumor on her spleen and the vet gave her only a couple of months to live. I can say this is true. Maureen 954-589-0606, Your dog’s death may be one of the hardest things you ever face. My Dog Died and I Can’t Stop Crying. I encourage you to seek help, because it seems like you’re stuck in the beginning stages of the grieving process….and I know your dogs wouldn’t want you to continue living in pain! With God all things are possible and I will continue to seek him and an answer. 3. My heart is broken. You can visit the site and print out the candle light ceremony and do it one your own, I wish I could give you some peace. “Grieving the loss of a pet encompasses all the same elements as grieving the loss of anything else,” writes Dr Lisa Lembeck Roberts in The Anatomy of Grief: Processing the Loss of a Pet. She had developed seizures too, but when I was with her, we steered around that (by helping her through them). Kid pictures. I can’t stop thinking about everything that happened yesterday and the time leading up to his last day. I especially pray that you find ways to fill the void in your life. This is a sadness I haven’t felt in a long time. although the loss will always be there, it will become more livable and Life will move on. May you find love different forms, such as other pets, loving partners, a fulfilling job, or meaningful volunteer work. I also searched the internet and pinterest for poems etc. I was away from home on an intense week-long course, and couldn’t reply to you. I miss her terribly, still can’t believe she has gone. My heart aches and my body feels heavy, I am finding it hard and crying a lot of the time, sometimes without any warning tears will be rolling down my face. I meant to say that I have booked in for therapy with a psychologist as nobody seems to understand my grief. My husband just said to me that he was tired of being #2 to a “dog”. You may see that I reply quite often. Every life matters. Watching tv together. Should you put your dog to sleep because of an illness or injury? The police took her dog, I went and pick my dog in my arms and all what they was saying was how are we going to get our dog back, didn’t feel guilty one bit. During those long days, a bored 3-month-old Mike had been left home alone with nothing to do. It’s been two weeks and I still can’t breath whenever I am home alone and my sweet , horrid , funny little Pomeranian suddenly started having seizures that cause irreparable brain damage , and held him in my arms while he took his last breath . I do have two cats and a chihuahua that I get up every day and take care of. 6. You were the best dog and loved me unconditionally. Lol. i drove off to see a play. My family never mentions Todd and if I do, they change the subject. I too have vowed to never get another dog. I still have her bed in my room and my son has her collar hanging next to his bed. She got so sick with age I couldn’t let my girl suffer. I have tried to look for support in my community to no avail. I am yearning to move on but I can’t force my mind to do something it’s not ready to do. I also can’t stop with the personal recriminations and ‘what if’ questioning. Out of habit like I did my girl I held out my hand and said gimme five expecting nothing. I hurt so much that it feels like I can’t go on. Nearly all pet owners have some sadness or regret about their pet’s final moments. Your dog has moved on and now its your turn. I sent out a brief email tribute to some friends and was very touched by all the support I received back. I love my dog with all my heart, but I also love my work, my husband, and my writing.” is not very helpful since they probably did not get all their love from their dear dog and gives the impression that the dog owners pet was Just a dog and replaceable and that somehow having a job and or husband or Wife you love can replace the dog they loved so much.. I feel like I let him down, his vet had given him surgery for a tumor a month and a half before this happened, she said shes sure she got it all. When a person dies, family and friends sit around and reminisce about their loved one. Everyone is different how they handle grief and it is not for anyone else to ever say you should be over it, move on, pull yourself together. But there’s not nearly enough of them. I have also been writing down all of my memories of her and this keeps her alive in my mind. Here I sit nearly a decade later and my heart beats and breaks dog. She was a feral cat when she followed my mom home after weeks of her being fed on the street over. My cat ran from her body and me! Not sure why I agreed to it. I still miss him all the time though. Felt like she would be with me forever. My girl had passed and my cat who helped raise her was in depression. 1. He is suffering in this body he was given, and has no control of it. The house feels horribly quiet. However I want to be happy again. Nothing means anything to me anymore. If I could jus know that for certain. It will never be the same without her. I had been anticipating her death for about two years. Because as George Eliot said, “Animals are such agreeable friends – they ask no questions, they pass no criticisms.” Your beloved dog was always there for you, unconditionally loving, listening, and passing no judgment on anything you said or did. My fiance moved her body back to our home and told me I’m sorry honey she’s gone. I can’t explain in an writing how guilty and blessed I felt at the same time. We would hear joints crack when she stood up. That is the point and the reality all dog or pet owners must learn to live with. Your email address will not be published. I keep thinking was it too soon? The confusion about why she couldn’t follow me. I know this because I live with my sister and she told me that everyday at the same time he would sniff the crack in the door waiting for me to come through it. I have nothing to live for. My kids are hard-time rockstars. I too feel like I can’t breath at times. I love kissing dogs sweet, little, cold noses. Please know your dear dog would want you to be happy again. Let go off my fight with them, I seem my dog on the floor bleeding from his belly his inside hanging out. I realize all dogs go to heaven. Not one word did he say to me! I stayed with her until a couple minutes after her last heartbeat, and just held her in my arms. I know he can’t be replaced, but maybe in the future love another dog who may need a home & extra care. You can sign in to vote the answer. Bless you. The last image I have of her in my mind was confusion about why I wouldn’t let her come with. My little dog was killed by another dog last week while my friend had her. I know it’s easier to tell someone else this than do it myself but I am gradually beginning to realize that by playing the last couple of days over and over again in my head is not the way Hazel wants me to remember her. I can’t wait to go to sleep just to get the day over however: I can’t stand to go to sleep as all I do is think of Todd and cry. I lost Max my Labrador to cancer and diabetic mylopathy, last May. 1. Right now, I don’t want another dog. They can offer help and support. Was it my fault! I think hugs are a blessing as at this time we do feel sad and lonely. I tried to explain to people that when I lost my beautiful Lab Lucy I was like a mum grieving for her child. Still tell him to wake up, crying my eyes out on the floor. Claire, my heart aches for you for so many reasons. I know we’ll meet again. I was given many accurate details none of which had been given to my communicator. 9 Things Your Deceased Pet Wants You to Know You have to believe that this was how she was supposed to pass. The next day I started looking for a new boy to fill my life, he won’t replace my Lexx but I feel he will honor his memory after all I did get Lexxys permission. I feel your pain. Max passed exactly one month before his 15th birthday. The pain is as raw today as it was the day they each died. She got better. I don’t think have the courage to do this alone and I fear for myself when it’s over.”. Losing a member of a family is one of the hardest things in life . I reply to try and comfort someone in need as well as it can help me. And when the Soul leaves this Earth, know that this exit was part of their Soul’s plan and a specific choice made by their soul. Dear friend it will get better they told me that and i didnt believe it and i didnt want it to get better i just wanted my baby back and I still do, i also wish i could have my baby back and love and kiss on her. Toby got it. Please know there are people that understand what you are going through and truly care. Sandy. Just dont seem to care about much. No matter how long ago our dogs die, we still feel the pain. A friend told me that losing her dog was worse than losing her parents. He was 16 and just a couple of days ago he stopped drinking water, would just hover over his water bowl. Murphy was my dog, he loved me the most. My friend. I’ve had people say when they die they want to come back as my dog! Oh how i know how you feel, I had to make that decision for two of my babies within one week of each other, I can still see my baby on that table she looked at me and then they gave her the shot, I will never forget her beautiful face looking at me. Fighting your feelings only makes them worse. Nothing! My parents were getting a divorce and like always my Mom took her anger out on me. I’ve read this is a common thing: the guilt over wasted time. I lost my other one two years ago and had to have her put sleep I’m still not over that . I wanted to express my gratitude for your comment as it made me feel like, hey it is okay to feel this way. This plan includes all possible exits from this world. And now hes gone my tears are relentless I want my baby back. She was my friend. My lil Khaleesi couldn’t die so early. I carry my much missed Lab Lucy’s collar in my handbag and I look at photos of her all the time. Lori You are not crazy, you are grieving. This vet also shares her experience with putting her own dog to sleep at home, and offers help for healing the grief of losing your dog. I lost my lil 4 years old baby Khaleesi two days back. 2. We had her and she had us. There’s nothing you, or anyone, could have done differently to save them. Perhaps they already knew I was dying. As an Amazon Associate, I earn from qualifying purchases. She showed me the meaning of unconditional love. The routine and quietness without her at times is unbearable but I’m asking God for the strength to get through the loss. The grief involved is exactly like losing a family member. After Emily died, I couldn’t drag myself through three miles, not to mention find the energy to get out of bed, put on clothes that were not my pajamas and shower at regular intervals. The night I went to bed at around 5, I woke at 9:30 a.m., though. Yes, she’s paralyzed from the neck down but she still does all those things. Old age and cancer. I still cry for her almost every night. My heart is broken and my soul is crushed. It was very poignant and meaningful to me. She stopped eating and drinking on that last day and I took her to the vet, she collapsed and died on his table, she was only 7 years old and such a character. Her death was hard on all of us, including Lady. Here’s what pet bereavement counselor Wallace Sife writes in The Loss of a Pet: “Get rid of your pet’s toys and other things…they are mostly painful, and not good for you at this time. I hope these words will encourage you. I have morbid thoughts, and (now) I have a phone with unlimited minutes on it in case I need to call someone at a hotline. Because I couldn’t pay $50 for car insurance that month. People always say it gets easier and I didn't believe them until now, it does get easier as the weeks go by. She still had life left in her, I believe. Devastating and touching story ): But you can not begin to think that life does not matter. When I initially posted on this site, I was so desperate to find anyone who could sympathize/empathize with what I was and still am going through. I wanted her to grow up with my son and for her to stay as long as possible. Moving on is not gonna be easy, but keep on trying. We recommend moving this block and the preceding CSS link to the HEAD of your HTML file. Everywhere i look around the house, i see her but it’s my imagination…i yearn to have her in my arms again that i could burst inside. I will instead tell you I am here with you. I'm 19 so we've had him for pretty much as long as I've had long-term memory. I have witnessed the toughest men you’ll ever meet bawling over the loss of a beloved pet, and I don’t blame them. Spend every day of your life happy because we only live for so long. Thank you Laurie. I just wanted to reach through the computer and hug you. We adopted another dog, Kayla, when Lady was 6 years old. I want to be with her not here on this hell earth…. Losing a dog is losing a part of the family. But I don’t really care. My heart is already breaking because I know what is coming. You went way beyond what most people do to make him comfortable. I knew that chocolate was poisonous to dogs, but at the time, I thought that if I didn’t have the money upfront ($300-$3000), that they wouldn’t see me (or that they would judge me, euthanize her, or take her from me, because of the neglectful condition she was in: i had fallen off her grooming and her medication regimen). My day used to be determined by her. I have lost other pets. Its funny cause it seems all i had to do to get rid of bullies at work and guys who try to flirt to get sex was stop giving them attention? A piece of me died Jan 11 when my pug Lola passed after 16 and a half years. Thanks for the helpful points in you post. She was in my arms at home as we have her the injection and I feel as if though I killed her. I need to talk about Todd. But Montana did! I loved my dog more than anyone, even my partner. She was loving, of course, all the way through. I will never have another dog. Misty, you are missed but not forgotten. Actively grieving your dog’s death, on the other hand, involves: Coping with your dog’s death in active ways is more difficult in the short run but much healthier in the long run. Peace my friend. If only it was that easy for me, because I have had days when I want to close my eyes and not wake up. He passed away in my arms and I still feel the guilt of putting him down. It is normal and healthy to feel sad after your dog dies. sorry to say but I am someone who would not forgive my partner for letting that happen. It really is like losing an important family member who you love. I wouldn't worry. When we went to see him on Sunday his eyes were covered in yellow discharge and his breathing was labored… We made the decision to put him to sleep. I will keep her going until she stops eating or drinking or is in pain. Dorry Bless lived here long. The moral to my horrendous outcome is, if you are uncomfortable with your pet’s dr at ANY time over the years, FIND A DIFFERENT ONE! I was blessed to have him and now have to find ways to go on. The pain I feel hurts so badly. and even if this is so, then you have to make it so that something does matter. And was a very good boy. I cry nearly every day but I am better than I was….not long after she had passed all i wanted to do was to end it all and be with her but that’s not fair on my loved ones, so I thought to myself that I must push through and remember her as the beautiful and gracious girl that she was. They don’t want you to regret the way that they died The second moral is – before you put any pill in your dog’s (or cat’s) mouth, research it THOROUGHLY! It is good t grieve but be careful. its awful. We we’re about to leave to go out of town with my fiance for the first time I couldn’t been more excited for her first road trip . We were together 38 years. May your life be filled with beauty and joy – starting now, with the loss of your dog and mom. TWEET. It could help. I cry, of course. Of course, if you’re suicidal, you do want to die (or, more specifically, to end your pain through death) but, if you simply want to die, you may not be actively suicidal.Please understand that wanting to die and being suicidal are both serious and dangerous, but I would suggest they are not the same. I had her for 16 and a half years. It took a while but I got better. He slept with me every night and was the first face I saw every morning. She was the sweetest dog and I was very very lucky to have her in my life. I’m so sorry that you lost your dog. Sincerely, Gerri. She would lay down at my feet the moment I felt sad. I hope my girl is running in the afterlife sunshine and I yearn for the day when I can run with her again. And I can't change it. Wishing us all peace and recovery for out losses. It will seem much longer to you, but I hope knowing you will see them again one day will bring you comfort. Euthanizing a dog you love is a very difficult decision. The Spirit World exists right alongside our physical world, and while your pet may no longer be occupying their physical body, they’re still with you in Spirit. I can’t work, sleep or focus on anything and I just want to end my life so I can be with her. It could just be a case of poisoning. I can’t breath . I loved loving her. (Piglet — 8 years old.) I miss Todd more then words can describe. Todd was not a “dog” to me and I hate that people think it is okay to grieve for the loss of a person but not a “dog”. No one in my family understands or honestly, cares. I was so lucky to have her all these years, but used to her by my side all these years. My father used to be cruel to the dogs we had as he was to us and so when I took Lucy I told myself she was always going to be loved and she was. Advise of how to get thru this is much needed. My mom said that she’d be a better mom to me from now on. There was no going backwards and the fire was enormous. I also pray you find comfort in God, that you find peace, joy, and serenity in His presence. I’m not excited about it. At this time I had had a short holiday booked for months with a good friend to go to walk a track in New Zealand and I felt that Taj was going to be O:K as my partner was staying home and would be able to look after her. Lisa. If a vet will not honor your request or seems hesitant….move on. She did an ultrasound and found out he had a tumor in his liver that she hadnt seen and the verdict was put him to sleep. He got to live out a happy normal lifespan which should be worth something. I am so heartbroken. You send them pictures of your “fur baby”, Emmett, and they will make a replica as a stuffed animal. Mama died suddenly and in my husband’s arms, and her final moments are images he can’t shake. Its the darkest place in the world to be. My neighbor saw my grief and took me to an animal shelter just to pick a dog for comfort. My beautiful cocker spaniel, Holli Jayne passed four months ago at the age of 10….she came into our lives at just 6 weeks old. They understand your sadness, but would rather see you happy I think I do best when I just pray (instead of reading what the naysayers say on line. I walked home with Montana in the cat carrier stunned. Please, if you need to talk to someone….feel free to contact me as I know exactly what you’re going through. I have pictures of Hazel everywhere at my house, on my phone and at my work desk. I know it may not seem that way now, but…it has proven true every time.”. I don’t want to as Jon was my entire life and now I have nothing to look forward to. I want Ranger. The day I took her to the vet, she couldn’t walk due to paralysis in her back legs but the vet said her gums were healthy looking. I know nothing will replace, Emmett. My routine and the complete feeling of responsibility are gone from my life. Of course not! Cavorting and running with joy! I just lost my little buddy 3 days ago. I have purchased several items that I keep close so I know and feel, Todd is with me and Todd knows I will never forget him. Everyone repeating the dog is dead, the dog is dead, nothing you can do! It’s a pain that won’t leave you for a while and you feel that you’re going through hell and that its not fair that they left you this way. Reading your blog helps. When Todd passed, I wanted anything and everything I could find/buy to try and fill the huge void in my life and in my heart. another dog can do exactly the same. You know you are in trouble when you type ‘my dog died and I don’t want to live anymore’ into a search engine. She would comfort me like no one could. My dog was struck by a car and died just a few days before yours passed. I called him my little prince because that’s how he was treated. My beloved friend. She then contacted pneumonia and became so very weak within just a couple of days. I would love to reply to everyone individually but for obvious reasons… I won’t. I would give anything just to have her back, i know that sounds terrible but i miss her so very much. Whether others believe it or not: statistics show that the loss of a “fur baby” can be just as devastating as any other loss. They’re part of us, and why they die we lose a part of ourselves. I can drink fluids without too much trouble. 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